Valerie Salinas’ Experience at St. Mary’s Hospital for Children

Academic Service-Learning Essay-Contest Winner
Course: Theology
Professor: Father John McKenna

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Prof. Kathryn Shaughnessy
Hello and welcome to the St. John’s University Libraries Podcast Series. Today we present Academic Service Learning Essay Contest winner Valerie Salinas, a sophomore at St. John’s Queens campus. Ms. Salinas reads here award winning essay about working with conically ill children at St. Mary’s Hospital for Children in Bayside, Queens. Thank you and we hope you enjoy the podcast.

Valerie Salinas
For my service-learning experience, I chose to go to St. Mary’s Hospital for Children in Bayside, NY. After volunteering there for several weeks, I do not think I could have chosen a better place to do my service learning. This experience has helped me view life in a different way; it made me think about how I treat others and how I live my life.

Before my service-learning experience, I read Matthew 25: 31-46 and it helped me understand Jesus’ message about helping people. My interpretation of Matthew’s passage did not change since I did my service learning. If anything, it helped me better understand what Jesus was saying, and I actually experienced how he felt when he gave a little of himself to others.
 This passage shows how Jesus considered all people to be people of God. He said, “Whenever you did it for any of my people, no matter how unimportant they seemed, you did it for me.” Jesus is saying that whenever someone does something good or shows kindness to someone in need, he or she does it for him as well. He views acts of kindness as ways of uniting the unlikeliest of people; the more you help others, the more you will understand yourself and live your life more completely.

 Jesus also mentioned that, “Whenever you failed to help any of my people, no matter how unimportant they seemed, you failed to do it for me.” When most of your life is spent living only for yourself and being concerned with everything you do for yourself, then you start to live an empty life full of regret and loneliness.

I learned a lot of important life values from my service- learning experience. I worked with children between the ages of two and six who had certain diseases or disabilities that prohibited them from living simple, normal lives.

Sometimes people can be very selfish without even realizing it; we go through life only caring about how everything will affect us and we never stop to just think about others or how we can affect their lives. As a 19-year-old, the world seems unfair at times; school, love, friendships, problems, obstacles and all those other little things are what we dwell upon because they seem so important. Every day I spent at St. Mary’s, I thought about how stupid all my problems were; I really learned to take a step back and examine how I was living my life.

 I must have interacted with several children day in and day out in that hospital, but it took one little boy to change my life. This two-year-old boy with lung disease became the highlight of each and every day I spent volunteering there. Just seeing such an adorable and precious kid with such a horrific problem made me think about how unfair the world could be.

 Many people out there are healthy and happy doing some of the most horrible things and getting away with them, while here is a hospital full of children who were not given a choice on how to live their lives. They have been robbed of the simplicity and joyfulness that comes with being a happy and healthy child.

The first day I volunteered at St. Mary’s, I felt so useless and helpless; I remember I was ready to ask the director to put me in a different department. I had chosen to be in the Toddler unit, where the children were treated by the nursing staff and spent the majority of their time just sitting in their cribs playing by themselves or watching television.

 I went in thinking I would have the opportunity to play with the kids and take them to the park or walk them around; I did not think I would have to work around the nursing staff. I felt like such a burden just being there, as if I were interrupting the flow of things and being a nuisance to all the people who were treating the kids. I had never been in a hospital for a long period of time, or had seen how people work around one another. I was scared to ask anything of anyone, and I was terrified of doing the wrong thing with the children for fear of accidentally hurting them. I left with such disappointment that day, as if I had not accomplished anything. I did not feel as if I had touched anyone’s life and I felt my service there was unneeded and unnecessary.

Despite my horrible first day, I decided to keep going for the sake of the kids.  I went in with determination to make the most of the time I spent with them. I remember talking to one of the nurses about the first impression of my experience.  She told me not to care about anyone else but the kids; they were all used to working around people and I was not a nuisance at all. I told her I was thinking about volunteering in the recreation department and she told me they have plenty of people there to assist the kids.  In the toddler unit, however, they hardly had any people to interact with the kids. She told me that on some days the kids stay in their cribs for the length of the day and only come out to eat or to go to therapy.

It was not until she told me that, that I felt my presence was appreciated. I thought about how the children needed people like me to spend time with them and take their minds off being sick; they just needed someone to help them feel like normal kids. I saw God in every one of the children with whom I interacted.  As a result, I am very sure that God takes care of all of them. Every time I saw a smile from the children, I could feel their love, kindness and gentleness.

Matthew’s passage applies to my experience because the love and compassion Jesus asks his people to give to others is the same love and compassion I was asked to give to these kids. I would like to think the children get something out of my being there, and that I brighten up their day as much as they brighten up mine.

 In my opinion, the meaning of the passage in Matthew can be understood by anyone; it is not a hard concept to grasp. The message is basically to love and treat everyone equally; to help each and every person in any way you can—whether you see them as important or unimportant. I do not think you need faith to understand the meaning of Jesus’ message in this passage; you just need to believe that by helping others your own life will be complete.

 You will find meaning in things you never thought could mean anything to you.  In this passage, Jesus tells his people that whenever they showed kindness to a stranger or neglected to help one, they offended and betrayed him.  Just as whenever people acted with kindness, Jesus felt the presence of God in them as well.

I always thought the only way to communicate with children was to speak to them clearly and to make them understand how to do things or why they should do them; I was not aware that there were other ways to actually reach them and get a message across to them. Children are very perceptive and they see and understand everything that goes on around them; they just do not always let you know they do. Talking is not the only way to reach them; physical interaction is the best way to communicate with them. It is true when they say actions speak louder than words, because sometimes words cannot express what you wish to say in the way you wish they could.

The two-year-old boy who captured my heart impressed me the most. Every time I visited him in his crib he would say “uppey up,” so I could pick him up and let him run around. I would walk him around the hospital; sometimes I would have to chase him because he ran so fast. The nurse also let me help her keep him occupied and distracted while she treated him. I felt like an important part of his life every time I visited him; he made every day I spent there a worthwhile experience.

When you see little boys like that, with such big problems, it really puts your own life into perspective. We complain when we have problems and about how life can be unfair, and here is this little boy who does not have the opportunity to live the simple life that a kid should live.

I plan to continue volunteering at St. Mary’s Hospital for Children; it has been quite an experience for me, and I hope I will continue to learn something new each day I spend there. I can only hope I will continue to follow the example Jesus gives in Matthew’s Gospel and give my life a little meaning by reaching out to others. I want to be a part of something meaningful; I want the chance to make a difference. I want my small gesture to go a long way and have the opportunity to touch the lives of these wonderful children of God.

Prof. Kathryn Shaughnessy
That concludes this podcast. Bumper music is “Inspiration of Love” by Joe Sibel courtesy of Podsafe Audio. We thank Valerie Salinas and the Office of Academic Service Learning for sharing their time, experience and talent for the greater community.